Choice Making

I always believe that I live the life I wanted - keeping my own choices rule my journey. I guess it works. I however discovered something lately that help me align curves in my little choice-making. Let me tell a heck story. I was in a “watch store” few days ago, ready to get what I wanted for the longest time - my Swiss dream watch. Before stepping in to that door, I came across a shoe store few meters away upon noticing a catchy pair of white leather. End of story, I got them. Reasonable enough though because I needed a decent pair myself. Going back to that “watch store”, as the purchase decision is getting sealed off, I pulled out my wallet to pay for that precious model. I wasn't realizing that I've taken some amount already prior for getting another purchase earlier. So I had to step out for a moment to get a cash from the ATM to complete the pay. Annoyingly, the transaction couldn't get through. I have staggered withdrawal in a daily basis before for days just to come up with my planned amount for that watch, and it worked. Why not this time? I've tried...and tried...over and over again until the lady behind me asks if I know how to use an ATM why it takes me 5 minutes and not getting anything. I pulled away annoyed and disappointed. Back in the store, I really tried to persuade the sales lady to give me a little more discount considering of the available money left with me, but no way to go lower than her best offer for they follow a standard price. The missing amount is not even half-a-thousand U.S.  Out of embarrassment and disappointment, all I could do was to apologize for taking her time with me and had to walk away empty-handed. What a shame! 

While trying to get over the day in my head, I found myself again in another store close-by. It was an  Apple istore. End of story, bought new gadgets (mostly for my family).

That entire little drama which happened within an hour seems forever in delivery. I have been in similar situations before, but never I cared to listen or comprehend what the instinct try to tell me. Result is: I always end up to the point of regret for wrong choice or unnecessary purchase because of impulse. For not having been able to acquire that watch though, I realized that I am not worthy yet. My dream watch does not deserve an owner like me yet. Such brand or that particular model type of my choice suits the person of status...and even I have the purchase capability, it makes a little disproportion.  My insticnt tells me that I have to follow the order of priority. I share a world with people back home. So spending should be aligned with needs, not my selfish wants (I get self treats from time to time though so I still spend for my own sake). Because at the end of the day anyway, where do we go after all when a hard night partying is over? Isn't it home? And whatever we call “home” should deserve a little of investment...and putting smiles on your loved-ones' faces is such an investment.

Those gadgets I bought instead of that watch become an instrument for a better and more convenient means of communication between us. That is way better than having a glitter on my wrist and waste time aswering questions about how much did I pay for it.